My previous post about "Forever Learners" brings up another very important point: Long Ideas.

Back then, in my professor days, I was working on an infant of a book called "Welcome to Pixelton". I had most of the characters, setting, a general "go" at the plot, and even the big as of yet unrevealed super-secrets. I had a vision of what the book needed to be and was confident I could reach it.

Today, each and everyday I'm still working on this book. I'm a bit older, and the book is too. I work on it on the train into the windy city, at lunch in Union Station, and at night at home. I'm now doing 2 pages a day in hopes to catch the next round of the Xeric grant. The initial vision was a major help, but it wasn't the real thing. Only 6 months back did I finally stop working on a few other books and say "I have it."

The point here is that in every dream you are willing to hold onto, there comes a point where it changes paths. All of your heart goes into fueling a project and once you make it over the crest you know that it isn't what you expected to see.

From first-hand experience, many people stop here out of fear. Or worse yet they refuse to budge from their original idea perverting the careful and deliberate decisions they'd made along the way. It can be debilitating to feel that your time was wasted and you aren't quite sure what you have just ushered into being.

If you have these feelings this is a very good sign. It means that you are invested in what you do. It means you are focused on birthing something magical. Nothing worthwhile has been created by someone who punches the clock from 9-to-5.

There is no quick fix here. I'd love to say "Deal with it" and hope for the best. But if you believe in your idea hard enough,and your willing to deal with the fear of your own lumbering creations, then you have no problems. This is simply another part of the journey with a unique point of view.